On my iPhone

I figured out that everyone has their own problems and are already frusrated enough and since this is a dead blog and no one really bothers bout it, I shall rant here. I could have easily expressed it through facebook or twitter, but nah, I think keeping it myself would be better.

Honestly, when I'm really down. I dunnoe who to turn to. I just have to face it alone. Learn from my mistake and hope that I won't repeat the same mistakes in the near future. But somehow I think this is just not the way, I mean, I have my own perceptions on how things are like right? It can't definately be only seen in the eyes of an adult. Right?

I have alwas wanted to my folks to treating me like small boy. It really doesn't feel good to have dad come to room at two in the morning just to make me sleep. Look, it's not like I don't wanna sleep, its just that I can't sleep. Seriously. As much as I would wanna elaborate to you, I guess my efforts would be wasted, for you might think that I'm just trying to cover my self up with an excuse.

And I haven't been doing well in school, I've been getting Cs on average and only a few Bs. And an F as well. Fuck, seriously, I dunnoe what's up with the faces this sem, they seem to be hating me. Thing is, their comments make me wanna do more work in the following weeks, but their grading just pisses me off and demoralize me hands down. Imagine getting a C when you've akready your work, and the comments state that "you should work harder" and all that shit. At least a B right? Urghh fuck. Maybe it's just the impression I'm giving them - a teammate whom steals from other teammate and claims that it's his. Fuckkk.

Lately I've see people with love/relationship problems. I have no intention of being a victim of love, but I really have not felt how it feels like to love someone. Truth be told, I don't love my parents, I look up to them instead. Everytime I think of putting in effort into wooing one. I know it would eventually lead to no avail. I guess looks are important yeah? Gotta keep track of my diet for these few weeks, cuz I don't wanna go zoukout as a fat fuck. I would be contented just to lose some of my tummy.

Ok I feel a lil better after ranting it here. Imma try to get some sleep now. Still bave lots to talk about, but forger it, sure not make myself even mire agitated. Till then, your fatboy forever eddy yee.