Death Race

this post has got nth to do w/ th movie shown in theaters.
read on if u think im not trying to waste your precious minutes.

gahhh, didn't get the chance of busting into the gym over the weekends and i feel kinda sh!ty now.
promos are coming and i can't seem to get motivated to mug, let alone reading my lecture notes.
i srsly wish for a miracle, and somehow i have this strong urge to study for my o's more than my promos.
but miracles dont come That often, it happens only once in a blue moon, and the moon tonight is still same old Silver colour.
it was my choice to stay in MI, and i have to make use of every opportunity i can get my hands on, be it academically or non-academically.
well, its been a good habit for me nowadays to hit the gym often, and my fingertips hurt more often becuz im on my acoustic whenever i can find time for it.

no, dont get me wrong, im not sad, neither am i moody. im all th more not crestfallen.
i juz got to my senses that time flies too quickly and i have limited time to pull my socks up.
for now, im gonna focus my attention on one thing and the rest can wait; im not neglecting other things, im juz chucking them aside for the time being.
im gonna focus on my STUDIES. esp my o's, now i have this urge in me, to leave this damned place and embark on a brand new journey, a journey to where i'll get what i want, a DIP in Business( of a any application, and i cross my fingers it'll be business studies or business IT)

i can say its been a wild goose chase for me in MI, i dont even have th simplest idea of what i wanna achieve in MI, or let alone, setting my own targets.
call me an underachiever and i'll say u're overestimating me.
rugby and studies, im srsly proficient at neither.
yes, passing infatuations and the urge to start new flings come and go all the time, cuz this is MI, this is where i feel that i have really matured mentally.
yes, i might look like i dont thake things srsly, but truth is, its alr been a permanent impression of me to all of you.
i have this fear, this fear of losing things and losing my confidence. so, i hardly take things for granted. i mean what i say, i say what i mean( only applies to things im cocksure of).
i also have this occasionally feeling of guilt in me which i hate the most, it affects my decision-making, and most of the time, this guilt in me drives me to the wrong path, and from there on, i regret my decision.


11 years of education, never was there a single year i feel proud of the results i attained.

finally,
to all of you friends who were reading this post, form the cockles of heart,
Thank You.
Blood is Thicker Than Wood.